I Am So Disappointed
- Oliver Neighborly
- Nov 15, 2016
- 5 min read
Please do me a favor, please read the entirety of this article before you comment. I know that your fingers are already itching to blow up my comment sections with your opinions and conspiracies. Please don't do it yet.
I assume that half of you are probably ready to tell me how Trump will "Make America Great Again" and will be the best president of all time. While the other half of you are probably waiting to tell me how Trump is the worst thing that has ever happened to anyone ever. How you can't believe that America would vote for someone who is clearly the most racist, misogynistic, sexist, homophobic, islamophobic, xenophobic white-privileged man that ever lived.
I have some bad news for you.
If you clicked on this article for any type of political discussion about what has transpired over the last week or so, then you have come to the wrong place. I will go ahead and apologize, for I will not be discussing any of it. And for a few reasons.
1. I am a fictional character, and as such, I can't vote. I am not going to waste my time and mental energy on something that I cannot take part in.
2. I really do not like politics and consider them to be a waste of time.
3. I am fairly certain that the majority of the claims against each of the candidates are false and not really worth pursuing. I mean, come on, Trump being a xenophobe? That is the silliest thing I have ever heard. Who in their right mind would actually ever hate Xena? I mean yes, she is a warrior princess, but I have never heard anyone, much less Donald Trump, ever say an ill word of her.
I mean she is pretty fierce, so I guess I can understand how someone might be afraid of her. But seriously, is there anyone who actually is?
So, for those reasons and a few others, I am not going to offer my insights on this election. I am not going to talk about who the better candidate was. I am not going to offer more pointless commentary on this fiasco of an election year. To be honest, the title and the picture of Trump serve more as clickbait than an actual peek into the article. I do apologize, but since you are here anyway, why don't you stay for a minute and see what I have to say. Maybe it will be worth it.
So, now that I have officially pointed out that I lied to you to intrigue you, and that I have no intention to talk about how disappointed I am by this election season. Allow me to tell you what this article is actually about. To put it simply, I intend to talk about how disappointed I am with this election season.
Confused? Allow me to clarify.
I am disappointed by this election season, but not for the reason that you may think.
I am not disappointed in the lack of good candidates, nor the hatred that has been exposed in this country. I am not upset by the political biases of the media. I am not even upset about the outcome of the election.
Now, I suppose I should clarify a little further. I am not exactly pleased with these things either. Some of these things actually do bother me, but at the same time, this feels like a rerun. It is just politics as usual. I find it difficult to get upset about events that happen like clockwork every four years.
That being said, there is one thing about this election season that truly upset me.
Myself
Particularly my reaction to this fiasco.
Or more specifically, my counterpart's reaction to the mess. The non-fiction version of myself if you will. The one who has the ultimate control over this vessel. His reaction to everything was extremely disturbing, to say the least.
You see, we had agreed a long time ago that we were going to throw our concentration into this blog and our goals, that we were not going to get distracted by the different things that vied for our attention. We made a promise to ourselves, but we broke it. And to me, that is the most disappointing thing of all.
Looking back over my blog roll, it has been over two weeks since we have made any kind of progress on our blog or any of our goals, really. We were supposed to be focused and determined, not allowing anything to stand in our way, and yet he did.
We got lost.
I begged and pleaded with him. I told him to stay on course and follow through, but my influence was little and I lost the battle. We started to slip away from what we were trying to accomplish and fell into back into our old destructive habits.
Instead of writing our blog, he began to write long, useless political rants.
Instead of learning things to help us improve, he was focused on conspiracy theories lacking in evidence.
Instead of getting a good night sleep, he spent his nights lost in an endless sea of emails and allegations.
Instead of drinking more water, alcohol became his beverage of choice.
Instead of working out, his mornings were dedicated to working through hangovers.
Instead of meditating more and searching for inner peace, he allowed himself to get sucked into the anxiety and stress of every controversy that came his way.
With his focus on the wrong thing, we lost sight of our goals and we suffered for it. And for me, that is the most disappointing thing of all.
Which is why I wanted to take this moment to apologize. Not just to you (I honestly doubt that I have enough fans that missed my posts), but specifically I want to apologize to myself. There are many distractions in this world and it is way too easy to fall into the rabbit hole of things that just do not matter. Politics being one of the main ones. This is something that I know, and yet I allowed myself to get consumed by the trap. For that I am truly sorry.
And with this apology, comes a promise. To the best of my ability, I will do whatever I can to never fall into a trap like this again. I will not allow myself to be distracted from something that matters so little, and instead put as much as my focus as possible into achieving my goals, to moving forward in my life, and bettering myself as an individual. I am determined to make the best life possible for myself and those around me.
And hopefully be a lot less disappointed. We will see what happens, all I can do is hope and aim for the best.
I am Oliver Neighborly and this is just the beginning.
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