Here I Go Again

Trigger Warning: Cursing

Welcome to my blog.

For those few individuals who read my former blog posts, let me just say that everything has changed since then and therefore so has the blog. For those of you joining me for the first time, allow me to welcome you to what I am certain will be a fun, interesting and off the wall adventure.

With the restart of my blog I knew that I would need to take a moment to write an introduction as a way of explaining what is to be expected. To my dismay, this has been one of the single most difficult tasks I have ever undertaken.

I have written and rewritten this introduction over a dozen times already, and every time I have found my attempts to be completely unfit to print. This one piece has been keeping me from moving forward for months now, which is sad, because this introduction actually has very little, if anything all, to do with the actual blog.

Now, as much as I have wanted to just say screw it and work on something else, the reason that I haven’t caved into this temptation is because I do feel like it is important for me to put a bit of a disclaimer as to what is about to follow. Which really is a shame, because I feel like my posts would work fine without this lumbersome introduction. But, alas, this is my lot and I will cast it.

Allow me to explain. Throughout my life I have found that there have been certain expectations on how I should speak, act, think, and believe. But I have also found that these expectations do not hold true against reality as I perceive it. But despite my misgivings, I am ashamed to admit that I have often found myself adhering to the illusion of how other people want me to present myself. These theatrics have brought me much grief.

Why should I act in a way that is inconsistent of who I am?

This is not honesty, an attribute I value far too much to allow this illusion to continue any further. So, keeping that in mind, allow me to be frank.

This blog will probably end up offending most of you. Not that this is my intention. I am not the type of person who offends just to get a rise out of someone or to see how far I can push people. The truth is, I just often think differently than what people consider to be tame or safe, and I have gotten to a point where I am quite comfortable with that. I have no desire to be the type of person who censors himself just to maintain face with someone else’s sensibilities.

This is why I am writing this introduction in the first place. Hopefully this will provide a safe bridge to get you from the old perception of who I was into the new reality of who I am. Because honestly, I want you to be able to come on this journey with me. I am really excited about the future that I am going to create, and I want you to be excited to read it.

So, here is the bottom line. I am going to stay true to myself. Which means that I am going to make very little effort to appeal to anyone’s sensibilities but my own. I mean, let’s get real, it is extremely difficult to do anything without offending some person in some way.

So, yes, I will be offensive, not for the sake of offense, but because this is who I am and I am quite comfortable with that. I refuse to adhere to anyone’s expectations other than my own. Mainly because I often find that the expectations of others fall significantly short of what I know I am capable of achieving.

So, now that we’ve gotten all that unpleasantness out of the way, I suppose I should take a moment to explain what you can expect from future posts. Unfortunately, anytime that I have tried to explain what I’m about to do, I find that I can’t do it without contradicting myself at every turn. So, rather than bore you with a bunch of rhetoric that won’t make that much sense anyway, let me just say this.

It is what it is and I am who I am.

Or in shorter language.

Fuck it. Imma do me.

So, that’s about all I’m going to say on these matters, I’ve spent too much time on this post already and I am ready to delve into the things that actually matter to me. I hope that you are willing to come with me and that I haven’t scared you off.

After all, this only the beginning.